Am I Hiding My Head in the Sand????

Our joint community Relay for Life event is just around the corner. Some time ago, one of the organizers asked if I would like to become a member of the new team that is being launched this year for “Survivors Only”. I have yet to give her a definitive answer.

Why have I not made arrangements to become a part of this team? I’m not sure. I do qualify. After all, I AM a survivor and I am very proud of that fact. I’m definitely not the type who never speaks of cancer. I’ll talk about this subject to anyone who will listen because I think it’s important to get the word out.

Is it the commitment perhaps? That thought crossed my mind. I do tend to get stuck in my comfort zone and hate to schedule myself too far ahead. One of the cautions of having cancer I guess. You learn that life can be flipped upside down with just a few simple words.

I’m definitely not shy or backward and it’s not because I won’t know anyone; when you live in a small community of less than 3,000 people, you’re bound to see a few familiar faces hanging around.

I have been constantly watching for symptoms, more so over the past few months. Not because there are any. I am doing fine and feel fabulous. No unusual pains other than those caused by housecleaning (which is a shock to my system, for sure!) and no change in appetite or bowel activity. I’m not sleeping a lot during the day and there is no bloating. Nope, I wish I had an excuse sometimes for the extended waistline - just not that excuse!!

Okay, I just had a brain fart as I wrote that last line. I know why I hesitate to participate. I hate t-shirts!! My body has NEVER been a candidate for this type of apparel and I had always dodged them like the plague. Every year I cringe when I slide the bright yellow t-shirt over my head. That’s right …. BRIGHT YELLOW! Go ahead, throw salt in the wound. I can’t get lost in the crowd wearing bright yellow!

Don’t get me wrong, I wear the darned thing proudly. And I should - because I am still here. There will be several yellow t-shirts missing at this year’s event. The wearers' have gone on to a better place.

So, I guess I need to lay aside my vanity issues, make that phone call, and do my part for cancer research ……. And for those who have passed.

Until next time ……
~ BOptimistic ~